Lord have mercy on those who suffer.

The first few days after my surgery made me think about those who suffer constant physical pain; those with chronic pain and people who have diseases that cause them terrible pain. My pain was terrible, but it resided after a few days, and I wasn’t feeling so bad. Lord have mercy on those who suffer, especially those who feel like they would rather be dead than endure. My first week or two, especially when I was in the hospital made me think about Jesus’ command to visit the sick. I know what its like to suffer, and many who suffer constantly are alone and do not have loving family members to take care of them around the clock. It gave me the desire to go visit some of these people in the future, because I know what it is like to suffer terribly and don’t like to think about how much worse it would be without kind and loving people there to support you.

Connecting to God despite my injury

This was hard. I wasn’t angry with God. I don’t blame Him for my injury. I don’t blame myself either. Accidents happen and this one was really bad. Before my injury, my prayers were focused on sharing God’s love with people. Now it was “Please please please take the pain away!” and “Lord have mercy on me, for I am suffering.” Listening to “Trust In You” by Lauren Daigle was something I did almost every time I was in a lot of pain, sometimes on repeat. Healing a broken jaw is a long process. I prayed that God will heal me and make me feel better, but with this injury that is something that takes a long time. I didn’t know how to connect to God because all I wanted from Him was healing and that wasn’t happening. My healing process will take around three months from my surgery point. I know that many other injuries may take longer to heal, but the mouth is such an important part of your body and to have very limited use of it is difficult.