Ki’Shon Furlow – October 6th (Soul Slip)

This is the most vulnerable song that I’ve written to date. A painful, unbridled expression of a dark place in my life.

Lyrics:
[Intro]:

I can feel my soul slip
Soul slip, soul slip
Soul

[Verse 1]:

When we first talked on Easter, man I swear I felt real ready
Now here I am on your birthday and that Libra scale feel real heavy
As if just losing you didn’t have me down and feeling hopeless
When it rains then it pours, man my skin opened
Had two babies then lost a twin
Family ties had cost a friend
Me and Glo keep falling out
I pick up my phone and start calling him
Oh, wait he’s not there
I forgot that he’s gone again,
Memory’s getting repressed and that deep stress start zoning in
Ma is taking the loss hard, and we all see it, I don’t doubt her
But I don’t know how tell her that she’s overworking I’m worried bout her
You were always the wise one knew what to say and when to say
And I don’t have the strength to pray and I ain’t talked to God in like twenty days
And I know I prolly should now
But I hope this music speaks for me
You’re the one that put me in this passion so I’m asking
if you hear me from the heavens maybe you can intercede for me
If you get this message, I’m desperate I’m telling you

[Hook]:

I know if, I let go all of these moments
I can lose everything I’m holding
Fighting just so I can have my own grip
But I swear that

I can feel my soul slip
Soul slip, soul slip
Soul X2

[Bridge]:

Feel my pain as I try to explain
Feels like rain so I call out Jane
Stress remains and I’m going insane
Stress remains and I’m going insane

I said feel my pain as I try to explain
Feels like rain so I call out Jane
Stress remains and I’m going insane
Hustling for change and things got strange

[Verse 2:]

I don’t want a lamp full of wishes I’ll settle for only a bottle of peace
My dad and my lady for all that they pain me I bought ‘em a bottle a piece
I’m losing my count on the shots I’ve been taken, oh wait man I thought it was three
But I emptied a fifth and I’m fear I’m becoming what I promised I wouldn’t be
Son on the way, what do I do? Think shoot gun on the waist
Firing blanks I can’t recall the things you taught
Pray and read, believe in God,
But now there’s more money involved
And just working a decent job will make you think you don’t need Him at all
Where your heart is, there your treasures will be
That’s tatted on my chest, so I value that I’m blessed
Though I’m on the verge of losing the things precious to me
When I think of you I fight knowing there’s a weapon in me
And it’s loaded
I finally got the vision, now the vision now the scope fixed
So all these inner demons leave ‘em smoking
I can’t afford defeat so now I’m focused
You can this quote this, cuz I know if