Crazy Times of Transition

The past few weeks of my life have been times of transition and the next few weeks will be the same, except much more extreme. This will be transparent.

If you read my most recent blog post, you will know that I have been taking a break from CHH for the past 3.5 weeks. It has been good, and I’m glad that music has not been a big distraction from my schoolwork. I said that I would keep it up until my six AP exams were over, and now they’re over. I finished my important schoolwork for the year, so I’m not going to do much in my classes for the remainder of school. I have since downloaded a few apps that I had before my break and noticed that there are about four hours worth of new DJ Wade-O interviews with CHH artists. There are several free projects that have been released since then that I would like to download, and a bunch of new videos I’d like to check out, but I’m not planning to do so. It will take a lot of my time. With music, I will continue this transition and extremely limit my time spent scrolling through my Facebook news feed, YouTube, etc., but my consumption of music is the least important thing that is in transition for me.

My best friend is going to be gone on a mission trip for the entire summer. She will be leaving June 1st and coming back on August 14th. My college move-in day is August 12th, so I may not be able to see her until Thanksgiving. That’s crazy. I don’t have many friends or people who are willing to take time to listen to me, but she has been doing so every week since about September or October. She knows almost everything going through my head and going on in my life, she is always there for me, and now she won’t be able to. That will be difficult for me and will be a tough transition for me to make. Hopefully, I can make some new friends who can fill in that role this summer, or I can get close to some people that I’m already friends with.

I’ve got about three more weeks of high school! That’s a big deal. While I’m very much ready and excited to graduate, not everything is great about it. As I said, I don’t have many friends, but school gives me a place where I can have conversations with a few people every day. Not having school usually means no social time for me. As much as I like to not be at school, I have no job, and I get bored. I plan to share Trip Lee The Good Life book with several of my good friends before school is over. I have purchased and received six copies of it and plan to give them to six of my good friends whom I care about within the next week. They are people that I care about and have mostly known for a long time that in a few weeks, I may never see again. I really want them to know that “the good life is living by faith in a good God.” The possibility of not seeing these people in the future feels weird to me. My best friend, whom I talked about, had graduated last year told me not to worry about it, that this is a season of my life, and soon I’ll be in a new season in college and not to worry about it. She also said that the time she spends here in Winston-Salem is a (temporary) season of her life, and she wants to enjoy it. Her time spent here being temporary was not something I was excited to hear.

But I don’t just want to talk about the craziness. I want to talk about how to act when craziness seems like it controls your life.

It’s so hard to do the best thing in this crazy time of transition, seek God, and find His peace. I have always had trouble sleeping, and when I get to bed, I think a lot about the same things over and over again. It usually takes me over two hours to get to sleep each night. One of the hardest things for me to do is calm down and pray, but I am comforted by Psalms 62, which in verses 6-9 says: